Schooled Me...

After my first few weeks of Paramedic school, I am perplexed. Genuinely mixed, about the flood of emotions. Excitement, entrapment, overwhelmed, annoyed, inexperienced...just to name a few. I am so back and forth, its comical. I know, I know, I am a woman. I am insecure, yet indestructable. I am up, then down etc. You get the picture. I have to say, that for being an EMT for 10 years, I can't believe how much knowledge sits in my many books. The paramedic book alone, being 2000 pages. I always thought a knew the job, was comfortable, and confident--yet never knew how much more I could have known in that time. How much more I could've done. I am loving the new information I am learning, and can't wait for rotations, to put it to good use. Hopefully I will study enough, and retain enough, that I can love my almost perfect job even more. I am nervous but excited for the next few months in school, and hope that I keep a good attitude as it is quite demanding. I look forward to the day, that I can sew a red patch onto my dress shirt, (wish it was PINK...) and step up my game just a little bit more each day that passes thereafter!!

The quest begins...

And so, it begins.  The quest through paramedic school. I have to say, I'm excited to learn more heart rhythms, as I was having palpitations at the sight of my paramedic books. The main book, easily 4 inches thick. The second, all about heart rhythms. And the rest, we haven't received yet.  I think my heart just about jumped out of my chest. I've never been so scared in my life!! I hope I am ready for this challenge. I hope I can at least pass, but actually learn a lot to apply in my job. And finally, I hope to have enough confidence in myself, to continue school and finish my degree. We shall see. Only time will tell. I turn 30 in a month and that is CRAZY to me, as I imagined myself in a very different place in my life by now. I am pleased at where I am, and the goals I have achieved in my career (although slim) but hope to continue to strive harder at the millions of goals I have still set for myself! Stay tuned, at the experiences that will come with both work and school this year, I'm sure many follies are just waiting to unveil themselves!! Thank you, for reading!! It truly is, the greatest outlet for me...